October 11, 2011 with 7 Comments

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If I lived in China

I wonder what my day would be like…if I lived in China.

I’d probably get up early and make myself a cup of tea, maybe eat a bowl of rice.

I have a feeling I wouldn’t be tempted to skip my quiet time. Would I have to hide to read my Bible? Would I have to dim the lights and make sure the door was locked?

I wonder how many verses I’d try to memorize…or how many chapters. Would I be content with just 10 minutes with the Lord? What if tomorrow someone found my Bible? What if tomorrow someone found out what I really believed?

Later in the day a friend at work may tell me her problems. Would I be bold enough to share Jesus? The stakes are high. This could be a trap. Would I do it? Would I do it?

There’s a prayer meeting later tonight at church. Would I go? What would I tell my roommate? She’s not a Christian. Would I try to invite her or would I simply tell a lie. Does she suspect where I spend my evenings? Does she know I’m a Christian?

Someone curses the name of Jesus. My ears hurt. My heart tightens. Do I correct them? Do I stand up for the truth?

I go home for lunch. Would I watch a rerun of my favorite TV show, or would I open that book, work on those verses, thank God for another day lived, another moment of freedom?

It’s a party at work. Everyone’s drinking. They want to know why I never do, they want to know why I don’t sleep around, they want to know why I’m always so quiet.

Do I say it? Do I tell them the truth? What if no one else does? What if I don’t?

My heart is pounding but I’m not as afraid as I thought I would be. I’m about to speak up. I’m aware of the costs. My pastor’s been gone for at least a few months. They say he’s in prison but he’s ok, that he’s still alive. He’s still preaching the word, and so full of joy. His family knows that they’ll see him again. Someday. I can almost feel it now. I’m not alone. I’m not as afraid.

I wonder what my day would be like, if I lived in China?

Could this be my last day of freedom?

How will I spend it?

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  • Milo

    Many of us spend our days here as if we lived in China. we keep our mouths shut because of our fear of man. may this teach us to speak up, to worship, to look to the skies. Jesus is coming soon and we do not want to lose our chances. Keep speaking, time is short.

  • TL

    A pastor facing real death in Iran, righ now, in this very moment…His faith is as real as the death he is facing… And I am too busy to use my time to Worship the living God in the freedom He has granted me! What is wrong with this picture?

  • Gina

    I’m not afraid to speak his truth. I do so much I gave a Bible of mine to a neighbor in pain.I try harder now to live as it mite be my last. Speak his word 2 those that don’t know our Lord yet.to dance like hopefully no 1 is watching
    And praise him every moment I can good or bad.

    • Amber

      AMEN!

    • ramzi

      yes but you’re not in china, gina…

      ps. bless u for helping her

  • Amber

    Speak up in boldness about God, know matter the cost. Hey, if it ends badly you know where you will be. I spoke up when someone asked me what I do when I need to be motivated. I told them with boldness I’m a Christian and that I would pray and ask the Lord to help me. I have never done that before in that setting. When we are bold for God we living with strong faith that God will keep us save.

  • Gina

    Luckily I have to get up every few hours to eat.no ramzi I’m not in China. Its tough all over the world right now. Faith holy spirit. And speaking his word no matter the cost as Christians that’s what we are to do. P.s.no thanks needed. We stand together as Christians and honor him. My family and I .